Dear Beloved (peace be upon you),
When i sit with you, I feel your presence, I see you sitting across me, cross legged, smiling at me, pleased.
I start to cry, to choke out the words, I can no longer put on a face. “I’m not okay, I’m not okay living without you. I need your hands, I need you.”
You are not always on my mind like you should be, but perhaps each of these encounters are drawing me closer to you. I’d love to be able to always bring you into my life, especially during difficult times.
“What would my leader do in this situation? How would my teacher respond to that person? How would my beloved react in this circumstance?” Everything would become easier and clear. You are my light. Even in my heedlessness, you are always guiding me. Thank you.